Monday night's semi-final of Australian Survivor: Redemption was one for the history books.
A brutal final endurance challenge saw Loz, Jackson and Caleb standing on pegs for four hours. As her body began to give out, Loz reminded Caleb of the deal they had made, as Jackson was already out of the challenge, she asked him to step down and give her the ultimate win, assuring him that she would take him to the finale.
"We were solid," Loz told 10, "we had those conversations, and I felt really confident. I think we both did."
But as the ride-or-die duo continued to push through the pain, doubt began to creep in and cloud both of their minds. "Something happens to you on those pegs when you're under that pressure, and your mind starts to go. Your body starts to go, and you start questioning things," Loz explained.
"I knew I needed that necklace for my pitch; it just wasn't strong enough without it, and I wanted it so bad," she continued. "While I wanted to win it for myself, there was definitely that moment of negotiation because we had talked about it... But I kind of knew that he wouldn't [step down] because I was having the same experience.
"You've got your family there... none of us were going to give up. We all wanted to win that moment, and I feel really proud. It was over four hours, I gave it a good run for my money."
With her closest ally winning the immunity necklace, it seemed like a sure thing that Loz would be sitting next to Caleb in the final tribal. But Caleb Chaos had one last bold move up his sleeve, blindsiding Loz and making her the final member of the jury.
It was a moment that shocked even David Genet, as the jury all picked up their jaws from the floor. But Loz admits that she had a sense it could be coming.
"On the pegs, I started to question, because I was questioning as well," she admitted.
"Once we got to Tribal, in my heart of hearts, I kind of knew that I was done. I had made this peace, and I felt like he might write my name down."
With her torch snuffed, Loz barely had any time to let the experience sink in before she was sitting on the Jury bench, watching Jackson and Caleb make their final pitches.
"I wanted to take it really seriously," Loz added. "It wasn't me sitting there, I got dogged, and it was half a million dollars, so I took it very seriously and felt very privileged to have that part in the game."
Looking back at her time in the game, Loz said she was extremely proud of the game she played, one that was intentional, based on relationships and purposefully under the radar.
"Playing from the middle is incredibly powerful, information is incredibly powerful, and I really wanted to be that player and also to show people applying, you don't have to be flashy," Loz said.
"At the end of the day, it's really hard to show that social game... It's a game that's hard to show on TV, but I really believe in it. I believe Survivor is about relationships, and I think I played the best game of relationships.
"It didn't get me to the end, and it didn't get me that $500,000 [but] I played the game that I wanted to play. It was never dictated to me, I never did a vote that I didn't want to do, and I remained really solid to the end.
"I'm most proud of my game and, obviously, my girls seeing me in my power and my strength was an incredibly special moment... I just feel so proud that I stuck to my game."
Australian Survivor: Redemption tonight, April 14 at 7.30 pm on 10 and 10 Streaming
